Princess Fiona’s Weblog

A hypothetical situation:
Suppose there’s a package deal with A, B and C. You like that package, but u dont think u can afford it. U really really like A and B, and even though C is not the best product that could’ve been there, u really dont care abt it. As long as A and B r there, its a great package. C is not of any use anyway.

Now suddenly the package is within ur reach. and u have to make a decision whether to take it or not. A and B are still great, but C doesnt seem that unimportant any longer. The more u think abt it, more u get confused. Can u really ignore C that easily? Should u take the package or not?

Funny how every small decision in life becomes so complicated once the time to take the decision actually arrives. And funny how EVERYTHING seems to be a package deal. Take it or leave it – no cherrypicking possible.

Actually even if we were allowed to cherrypick, we wouldnt really know what to select and what to leave. Every small and stupid thing seems important once u realize u cant have it. And every great thing seems small enough to ignore once u actually have it.

The grass is always greener on the other side.

May we always have the sight and wisdom to keep the desirability independent of the probability of availability for everything we might or might not desire.

No, there are no more facebook quizzes that i can take, i have no new mails, no new scraps either, none of my fav communities have any new post, i’ve read many many angles of the jaipur blasts by now, there’s nothing new on mugglenet, nobody has updated their blog in the last 10 mins since i checked and i’ve promised myself that i’ll not touch that TV remote tonight.

Yes, i have a truckload of work right now, the deadlines are hanging over my head. And i m terribly bored of this blasted poster!!

What was the conclusion from my work again?

Cyclone in Burma, Earthquake in China, and now another set of serial blasts in India..
Death, destruction, bereavement..
With so much pain all around, how can we just carry on with our lives.. as if nothing ever happened??

WHY??

I COULDN’T agree more!

“Wax on, wax off. Breathe in through nose, out the mouth. Wax on, wax off. Don’t forget to breathe, very important.”.. said Mr. Miyagi to Daniel in The karate kid, part I.
Just how imp it is, i realized today after spending one full day in the emergency ward.
Before i moved to US, i considered ppl complaining so much abt their “allergies” a bit snooty. I mean, in a world full of such life-threatening diseases, ppl cant really whine so much about mere allergies, right?
God! I take back all my words (and thoughts!).
Last spring was fine. Summer wasnt very bad either.. had some problems, but then, it was “just allergy”. Then winter it became so bad that i had to go to the doctor. I felt like i got a new life after i started following his instructions.
But nothing had prepared me for what this spring had in store for me!
It started as “just allergy”.. which wouldn’t go away even after doing EVERYTHING that had worked so miraculously during the winter. Then i started getting breathless, and within a matter of 24 hrs, it became so bad that i just could not breathe.. forget walk or talk or do anything else!
Friends took me to the emergency ward (THANK GOD for friends!!) where they put me onto some “breathing treatment” to ease my breathing some 4 times during the 10 hrs that i spent there.. The ‘allergy’ had somehow metamorphosed into acute bronchitis! the breathlessness apparently sent my BP skyrocketing too. The doc couldnt believe that i could have such high BP, so he checked twice (once on each arm!) just to be sure!

I am finally back home… inspite of the (male) nurse there who exclaimed that i was very pretty the moment he saw me.. and then told me that he wanted to keep me there for ever!! i was like.. “hello! i cant breathe here! can u pls get me some medicine first!!” He was very nice and helpful though.
He has been added to the list of random ppl that my friends maintain.. ppl whom i tend to attract for some weird reason, and who somehow feel that its perfectly alright to tell me how they feel! Like this one incidence when i was talking to my friends near the inst. security, waiting for another friend to join us, when the security guy suddenly said, “Excuse me, i dont mean to interrupt, but i think she has got the sweetest voice! i could listen to her for ever!!” And many more such examples.. a source of never-ending entertainment for my friends.

Anyway, i should try to get some sleep now.
Some allergy, huh?

Its been ages. As always, a lot has been going on. White never really stayed for long. Brown exploded into a million colors, which blended into green in the blink of an eye. Many thoughts came in and left – unattended, unworded, unrecorded.

I’ve been well, thank you. Been busy all this time. Still am, as a matter of fact. Most of the mutants are now made. Rest will soon be done. Antibodies have started coming up. The stage is set for the real stuff to finally begin. There are some more diversions ahead, though. But after those, it should be a smooth ride for some time at least..
“Smooth ride”..

Yes, I know, the road only appears smooth from a distance – u start seeing the bumps and the potholes as u get closer. But that’s the way everything works in real life.. the “happily ever after” is just a mirage. Doesn’t mean it’s meaningless, though. It gives us hope, and a reason to move forward. The rides would’ve been boring if it wasn’t for the bumps and potholes, right? And as they say – smooth seas dont make skillful sailors..

So the obstructions and obstacles and failures and frustrations are just the spice of life, which make it interesting. Make us confident of ourselves.
No, rewording doesnt change the problems, but it surely has the potential to change our response. The attitude. The perspective. Which changes everything.